I don’t get this feeling only around the holidays. Even though someone or people are not in my life anymore doesn’t mean I stop caring about them. I always want to reach out and ask if they’re ok or what they’ve been up to.
But honestly it doesn’t really matter? Am I going to rekindle a friendship or a relationship with someone that was toxic to me in the first place?
What is it that we have with this desire to want to know what someone is up to? Is it because we want to know if they’re doing better than us? Is it because we need to have that satisfaction of knowing that we’re better off still? Do we genuinely hope that they are doing better? I would like to think the latter is true. But not always.
We do our best to move past the toxicity but there’s always going to be a little part of us that wants to know are they okay?